FEAR

I have a big fear that both Richard and Kyle have Marfun Syndrome. Kyle will go to the doctors on the 13th to get his referral to see a heart specialist. He has some of the same problems Richard has with catching his breath and so on and I have been doing research on Marfun Syndrome and it states that during teenage years for no reason they will get stretch marks along their lower back and butt. Which I have discovered that Kyle has and they are big and deep and purple and have gotten worse over the last month. He hasn't gained or lost any weight to give reason for the marks. I seriously think I'm about ready to break I can't take much more bad news with these boys. I have already been told that Richard has a Larger than normal Aortic Valve. So I went back through 5 generations to check it out and the results were that in every generation there was one tall person and that person either died of a heart condition or has a heart condition. My brother who is only 41 has heart issues and is 6'4". My father is 6'3" and has a pace marker and has leaky valves which is a condition of Marfun. My grandfather died of a heart issue when I was 1 years old and his father died young of a heart issue. So I just feel numb with fear of what the future holds with the boys.

Christmas morning

Aaron and Richard they look like they could be brothers Its funny though Aaron is 19 years old and Richard is 14.

Kyle and Richard sporting their new coats they both really needed winter coats.

Christmas morning Richard, Kyle, Sky and Trevor in front of the tree.

Feeling Sad

I'm putting my Christmas decorations up and came across the boys wreaths from Preschool the wreaths were made from their hand prints and the berries are their fingerprints and a picture of them in the middle. I just don't know where the time went. I catch myself looking through old pictures of the boys when I'm missing them being little which lately is alot.

Family Update

Well this is what has happened since my computer got sick. As you all my life is never dull so here we go. Dave-(Paul )Dave's brother came to visit and spoiled us and Dave is turning 40 tomorrow. Becky turned 40 a couple weeks ago (Not happy). Sky-had to bag and tag her first dead person today for school ( I can't beleive she does these things without freaking out). Paige- grounded as usual. Richard- got 2nd place for his first hockey tournament #14 and then managed to have hand surgery. Kyle-wrestling for his school. Trevor turned 11 a couple weeks ago.

I finally have my laptop back

Today we finally got our laptop back from best buy they have had it for 2 months sending back to hp and back to best buy they did this a couple of times. It great to have it back I almost forgot how to type.

Having a hard time

Well people I'm having a hard time with work. I'm so tired,exhausted,brain dead,drained etc. When I punched out today at 5 ish I had 51 hours and still have to work tomorrow. I think my brain and body is shutting down. I have a massive bladder infection. I think because I went from working like 18-20 per week to 50-60 hours in one week and my body doesn't know what to do. Pray that I survive this.

This is where I will be living for the next month. GRRRRRR. I started working there in September it was suppose to be only part time(ya right). Last week I received a call asking if I could be the Manager in Bay City. At first I said no than I thought I guess I could do it seeing as it is only for one month. But I started there on Thursday and there has been nothing but DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA. I hope my mind, body and soul can stay strong during this time. Please pray that I can make it through this month. The one thing I like is that the kids appreciate me so much more and when they see me they run to me and hug me and tell me how much they miss me. When I punched out last night I had 61 hours. I hope I survive this.